I am welcoming myself back to tumblr due to the fact I have so much to say all the time.
I am welcoming myself back to tumblr due to the fact I have so much to say all the time.
I’m so happy with life, that I feel like it’s overwhelming. It’s too good that I can’t take all in right now. On the other hand though, I like someone who has a girlfriend so I guess that that’s a bit of a crack in my life. I need a little crack sometimes. That probably is not what I should need but sometimes a problem is better than perfect.
but have you ever wished you never met somebody. Like they’re cool at times but then it comes to a point where they stress you out so much you wish you’re never met them? I don’t know, it’s a weird feeling. It’s not something that I WANT to feel but it is what I feel.
If that made any sense. So confusing.
No I definately felt that way before. Or sometimes I feel like I didn’t push a friendship into more. Kind of how I felt with Ari.
I really don’t understand some of the most simplest things. Why people cheat? Why we lie? Why we think skinny is the look? I am really get confused by all of this. And anyone can read this and think it’s stupid. Or find it without a point. But there is something that eats me inside everyday and I can’t find the answer to it. I know I’m pretty, I’m not the prettiest. I know I’m sweet, I’m not the sweetest. I know I’m smart, but I’m not the smartest. Overall I am a good girl. I love to talk and I love to laugh. My goal of my everyday is to make people laugh and smile. I cry when I’m sad and I smile when I’m happy. So I sound like a normal girl. I’m not better and I’m not less than anyone. I respect myself and I love my mother. I live for her. I love to have my friends around and I like to make new ones all the time. I lie when I’m scared, and I tell the truth because I’m blunt. I have so many wishes, and I have so many wants. I love my life and I wouldn’t change it for nothing. At times when it’s hard, I will hold it in because I’m too sad I’m to strong to show it to the world. I let it out because I’m breaking down and falling apart. But all I ask for is a another person. Just a boy that I can feel things for and they feel things for me. We don’t have to be together. But I want someone to look at me and just think about me. I want to feel appreciated. I want to beautiful to this person. Someone who is sweet. That someone who makes me feel special. Sometimes the worse people have this, and me selfish but selfless me has nothing. I just wanted to vent this because it comes across my mind. Especially when you like someone you can’t have, but I will not be jealous. I just know that they are lucky. I just want to know that someone will be lucky to have me one day too.
Because I have the flu. Oh yes, the swine flu most likely because it’s been going around in school. That or mono. Ahhh
Dear Sofi,
Things are different now. Your face is not the same to my eyes and the feeling is fading. I miss you with all I have but a picture is not enough. I hope you are doing well and that you are very content. If you get this write me. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Love Always,
Markus
I have not been on my laptop in forever. So you know how my tumubarlity is looking. Been so busy with school.
I’m so sad my sister moved to Texas today, and I feel so alone. How is everyone doing today?
Carolina Liar- Show Me What I’m Looking For
When I hear this song, I feel like the love thing that I’m just in is a movie. This is the theme song. If only you knew.
Dear _______,
You will never get this because I do not know when I will see you again. The last time I saw you I know it was fate and when I did not ask you for something that I needed from you, it only ended in tears. I miss the charming smile and this feeling that you were so nice. I really will explore your world, and I know that fate will bring you back to me, although you never were mine because you belonged to someone else. But that was then, when I see you again we would call it then, and maybe you remember me. I hope you remember me. I will remember you. If there was anyway I could see you again I would be so happy. I’d feel so fufilled even though you still probably wouldn’t be mine. But sometimes I ask myself and I ask my God: Why did I meet such a boy? Why did I get this feeling that I do not usually get? Why did I see him again on such an odd day I was not expecting? Was this fate? Will I meet him again?
I question myself all the time and I wonder what would have an email address have done. I know the exact answer too, and I will never get over the fact. I will always take a chance after this, because the feeling of wanting something and never having them is the one I do not like. Even it were never me and you to be your friend would just have been amazing. I know you would have been something good in my life. I know this is true because I felt it and God would have never put us in the same place. I could just cry of the thought of you, and your beautiful accent but there is nothing I can do or nothing crying would do.
Love always,
Sofia
